It's been a busy couple of weeks here since Judy died.
Paperwork, beaucracies, foul-ups, feeding myself, sorting a lifetime of possessions.
Telephone calls, cards, concerned friends.
It all adds up to a process of keeping my mind off of my loss.
But not always.
Some days are slower than others, when I just don't want to face any of that stuff.
When I think of her, which is often, sometimes I chuckle at something she said like the first time the paramedics and firemen came and were hovering over her.
Out of the blue, she said "I can't remember when I've had six men in my bedroom before."
Then there are the times when something pops into my head and just for a second I think "Oh, I've got to tell Judy", before I catch myself.
And there are the times when I get a little teary just remembering her.
So like I said at the start of this, it's been a busy but rough couple of weeks.
Thank you all for your kind comments and actions.
(My next door neighbors came over last night with a big portion of lasagna alfredo and a container full of tiramisu, both homemade, for my meal today.)
As I've told everyone, I'm getting through this and I'm not the first in my family to do it.
My grandfather, my father and my brother all lost their wives.
They all survived and so shall I.
And yes, the Friday Funnies will return.
I'm just not sure when.
Thanks for being there.
How well I remember saying 'I'll have to remember that joke/cartoon for my dad." Who of course was no longer living. Or wanting to call on the phone but of course that number was no longer in service. I think those are happy notes of keeping our favorite people in the here and now.
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking about you, wondering how getting on 🥺. Do take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteIt’s hard to lose a loved one. When my mom passed away, for quite awhile just driving past the “exit” to her place would bring me to tears. She has been gone for many years, but I still miss her sooooo much. Take care of yourself. Cali
ReplyDeleteI think of you often. I wish I lived closer so I could also feed you (it goes without saying, that Mike would be the actual cook).
ReplyDeleteIt takes time, my friend. For me, the pain faded and was more a ache in the background. The memory stays, and will be with you always. In that way, she will always be with you. You are in my, and others, thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI relate. My dear hubby died 9 years ago. I still talk to him. You are brave and continuing day by day. Sometimes even hour by hour.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you as you navigate the rough waters of grief.
ReplyDeletewhen you're lost, bored, sad or just need to talk, please don't hesitate to grab the phone and give us a yell. Wish we were closer but we're just a phone call away. You're in our thoughts a lot and we love you Bruce.....T & J
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